Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Thank you for the 2 precious long sms. Although it is not stated I had won the war, but still i wanna say thank you.
I believe you also do realise that I am interested in you. You are so clever by making yourself missing in your social circle and bait me out of my world.
You still locking yourself up in the social world? I know you need time, just how long will it be...
Maybe I'm too greedy. I am the one who do not know how to appreciate your 2 long sms. As I find the sms does not give me a clearer stated answer. But yet...
I really love you. Could you give me one chance? just one chance will do. Prove myself worth the waiting.
I'm really worried, worried that you might give others snatch away. But yea, is true. If a rs existed in the way of giving in and accepting, then is not perfect. It should be 2 way. I don't know how you feel about me after I had done so much for you. You may find irritating, you may find nuisance, you may find i'm wasting my time. But then...you are so clever. You know I did not state my stand clear and firm, and yet you also did not reply with a clear and firm. Everything is so neutral.
I still want you...trust me. Everytime i'm alone, my first person think is you...
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BaHaMuT @ 12:57 PM
Friday, April 22, 2011
I guess, nobody will look at this blog anymore. Is kinda safe for me to put up some personal voices i wanna voice out.
First is, I'm not sure if i can survive any longer in my property specialist industry. My capital are running damn fast and damn low. Trust me, I left $51 till the free money felling off from sky at 1st May. I wonder How am i gonna to survive.
Secondly, I think i felling in love again. Better to make sure before I conclude anything, i only know this person (R) for 1 month plus. R give me a special feeling when we first met. I only met him twice, but i don't know why i have this feeling. Maybe is because I'm lacking of love this past 23 years? Or is it I'm nvr been into relationship before so thats why I wanna have one too? I don't know. I wonder how R feels about me. But then I believe he is not interested in me. From the way R SMS, from the way R talk to me, from the way R misses his previous Ex-bf....hmmm....difficult one. I never tot i will fall into love trap, but then...i kinda wanna admit that i still must surrender to Love's feeling. It is so strong. I misses R whenever i'm alone, I misses R whenever no news from him, and I misses R wherever I go...Hmmm. Shall I just end it once and for all? And it shall (Hopefully) wake me up once and for all instantly.
Lastly, Muhammad Fais. I know you are still angry about me telling a bit on your background information to R. But let me tell u this, R and I are nothing. He just treat me as a friend and wanted me to guide you. I still welcome you to be friends back to me. Don't be too hard headed. I know you are lonely. And i know you do feel i am kinda lonely without your irritating and nagging too.
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BaHaMuT @ 2:10 AM
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Random.
I still love you. And yes, i love you too. And i kinda love you.
3 Different peoples.
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BaHaMuT @ 1:15 AM
Sunday, July 04, 2010
Alright, i think i may need a psychatrit doctor sooner or later. Lots of funny hallucination happen lately.
For example, a fren text me 178 as number, i actually thought is 317 and keep pursuing it. Another friend text me her apartment block of 411, i actually thought is 420. And furthermore i tot i saw the bus information of directing me to Pandan garden 420.
Worse things, i saw another bus of 166 coming, but it is actually 156. Numbers have been making me mad lately.
Ok, with something so last min happen today. Was inside 852 going bukit batok, then there is a road block with no official warning initially starting to seal off the whole stretch of road from 4th avenue onwards to KAP Mcdonald. So i actually jam inside the whole journey for about 1hr 30 min. That is ok, but then SMRT loves to hire china drivers which they are not so familiar with singapore road. So, i actually have to lead the driver an alternative route so that he can skip the bukit timah road and continues its journey after Ngee Ann Poly (The traffic police was actually tellings all motorists to U turn back, but worse thing is there is no official reason initially).
In the end, the bus was lead to go through PIE, well but there is a massive jam as most motorists will defintely choose that road instead of Clementi road after holland village.
Worse things is there was a stupid fat bitch who act and talk like ah lian inside the bus kpkb. Keep complaint go here also jam drive there so slow traffic so jam. Come on la, you so clever you alight and walk all the way back to bukit batok la. Work for $4 per hour in mcdonald bad breath mouth so big for wat? Look at yourself before acting ah lian. So fat, so ugly and so nerd. Still can say might as well alight bukit timah take train go bukit batok. Even a china lady also know that bukit timah downtown line is still under construction. Where is your Bukit timah train come from? You slowly wait till 2015 then.
And so, the bus was safety "brought" back to interchange =/
Just finish 9 Temple movie, $10 for saturday. A horror show, and the overall rating is rated number 1 in Thailand. Well maybe the opposite of number 1 in singapore....Get what i mean? =/
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BaHaMuT @ 1:32 AM
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I had this weird dream. Where me and friends (but i dunno who they are) are in a restaurants, some people just act gangster and use violence against us.
And I just throw the plates and cups onto that gangster, and he just run away.
Does that mean i am more violence than that person??
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BaHaMuT @ 1:07 PM
Monday, June 14, 2010
ORD, but im bored...
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BaHaMuT @ 9:16 AM
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Times flies, really flies. Another week, and i will be completing my BMT recourse. Still can remember 12 april 2010, where the new birds enlist, where there is a 'gangster' come and took us...haha.
But doesnt matter. Is just another come and go phase. I am already used to it. Frens will eventually comes and goes again and again.
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BaHaMuT @ 9:16 AM
